We are now down to counting weeks. Mckay has about 9 or 10 weeks left. I am not entirely sure because he hasn't said what his release date is yet.
How has two years gone by so fast? I feel like it was yesterday that I got my first letter from him. Shoot, I feel like it was yesterday that we were just little guys pretending not to date in high school!
When Mckay left I was pretty much a huge wreck. The past two years have been...crazy, amazing, hard, etc. Honestly, to my surprise, my love for Mckay has stayed constant. Through my dating experiences my respect and admiration for Mckay has only grown. I really didn't expect that, but here I am two years later excitedly waiting for his return.
A couple of posts ago I said that Mckay emailed me. In his email he asked me what my plans were and what I thought about us trying to date when he got home. You can imagine first of all my surprise and then my happiness! It took me a longer period of time than I would actually confess to calm down from reading that email. Since then my anxiety has climbed and there is always a constant temptation to give in to my fears, but with the help of my patient and understanding brother and my loving and encouraging mother I have been able to stay calm. It most definitely helps that my job right now is so fantastic and also that my job in Wyoming starts in one month!
For the whole month of March there was a quote on a calendar in the payroll office in the Brewster Building. Every time I dropped off our shops time cards I would read it and just felt the truth of it. It said, "Courage is putting your dreams above your fears." It truly takes courage to follow and pursue our dreams. What I am learning is that with every dream that I have there will always be fear to accompany it. Faith in Jesus Christ and courage in his grace and power then become the solid foundation that my dreams can build on.
So go...live your dream. :)
