Who can glory too much in the Lord? Yea, who can say too much of his great power, and of his mercy and of his long-suffering towards the children of men? Behold, I say unto you, I cannot say the smallest part which I feel. -Ammon
I read this verse this morning and felt the need to glory in God. Is there really too much we can do to express our gratitude and love for the Lord and his tender mercies? I feel his enabling power each moment as I embark on my journey.
Lately I have been thinking about living in the moment. Not in the "eat, drink and be merry" kind of moment, but enjoying what is going on in my life right now. Phases and stages seem to pass by so quickly. From semester to semester I meet and interact with so many different people who add to the color of my life. Some are bright, some are dark.
Being a mom has been on my mind a lot lately. Sometimes I wonder what my kids will be like. What personalities they will develop and what challenges they will have. Many times I wonder how the experiences that I am having right now will help them and shape the way they see the world and how they will react to people. Walking around Park City Main Street, observing all the people who came from all over the world, a spark of desire surged through me to give my children the opportunity to be cultured, to see the world in its raw and beautiful state. I want them to feel empowered by the diversity, not frightened. There's so much about the world that I don't know. There's so much about people I don't know. When I think of myself as a teacher instructing pure innocent children how to be in this world it seems surreal. Maybe it is because I am in school right now, but I have been thinking about giving my children a desire to know, to know about everything, even the things that I am not quite interested in. Most of all I want to give them the Gospel. I want to teach them that there is no limit in praising God. I want to teach them that there are times when the whole world seems dark, but that they will find light and life in Jesus Christ. Pondering on the mother that I want to be, the mother that I have and the mothers that have influenced my life by their examples including my sisters, makes me acutely aware of the many things that I lack in order to be like these women.
Thinking of these things enlarges my gratitude for the experiences of now. This very moment that I have to be at BYU, to be studying Therapeutic Recreation, to be working at the Key Office, and to be learning more about the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
So find joy in your journey. Take this moment to reflect and be grateful for the joys and sorrows that have brought you to this time in your life whether you are on the older end or the younger end. Allow those feelings to strengthen your hope and faith in the future. There is a God and he loves us.
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