I have this subtle passion/obsession with words.
It's not the kind where I find obscure words and use them to impress people.
It is this passion that burns when words come together to mean something beautiful.
When words combine to express truth.
The board that I most commonly pin to is my "Wise Words."
When this passion burns I feel a deep desire to create;
to structure words together to move someone.
It makes me regret all the chances I passed up to become a better writer.
How many English teachers did I have going through public school??
Over the past couple of months I have had a deeper desire to create. I want to create something wonderful. All over the internet, pretty much everywhere, I see all kinds of talented women creating the most beautiful things, from artsy crafts, to beautiful homes, to beautiful babies! I just have a desire to create something beautiful!
This has all led me to this deep reflection.
I have been mulling over it for quite a while now.
What are my talents?
What can I contribute to the world, to make it a more beautiful place?
I don't know yet.
At first, when I started thinking about these things, I felt impatient and kind of discouraged.
Gradually, I have come to the realization that for me personally, I don't know what it is that I can contribute to the world.
It has motivated me to be more proactive in finding my talents and seeking for the gifts that God has blessed me with.
So. The moral of the story is that I am on a journey.
A journey to find my passions, talents, and gifts.
And words is one of my passions.
A Little Dose of Gratitude
Sunday, March 23, 2014
Today I am grateful for my family.
Adell Simmons, not pictured here, is included in this gratitude.
These people make me extremely happy.
I am richly blessed.
In Honor of Valentine's Day
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Because I know I'm not going to have time later this week I wanted to write today, in honor of Valentine's Day.
This...
This...
is my sweet husband. As you can see, displayed in these pictures, he is pretty adorable. Lately, I have been having these moments where it feels like reality punches me in the face and it hits me that I am married to the man that I have loved and adored for years. He is mine forever.
What?? How did that happen? Getting married was a whirlwind for me. So much was going on at once that I couldn't keep up with everything that was happening. Now that our lives have slowed down a bit I am really able to soak in the beauty of it all.
Last thing. One of my very favorite quotes about love is from Gordon B. Hinckley. What better man to talk about love right? How he adored his wife! Anyway, the quote is, "True love is not so much a matter of romance as it is a matter of anxious concern for the well-being of one's companion." I think this is so sweet and so true.
I hope everyone's Valentine's day is full of sweet, sappy love!
Happy Valentine's Day!
The Joys of Marriage
Thursday, January 16, 2014
Okay, so I should totally be doing homework, but I just have so much on my mind that I want to get out.
I love my husband. Getting married has probably been one of the most humbling experiences. Not to say that Mckay is always telling me I'm wrong or something, it is more about accepting someone's love. It is like the feeling when you ponder the atonement. --Okay, obviously not quite as intense, but it's the same type of feeling. There is no real reason why Mckay should love me. I try to be a good wife by cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, making lunches, getting ready, giving hugs and kisses, but these really aren't reasons for Mckay to give me his heart. I would say this is the best thing about being married. Selflessly loving someone else and being selflessly loved. It is humbling and fulfilling.
God's plan, The Plan of Salvation, is truly the plan of happiness. You know, every girl I know dreams about when they get married. The wedding industry is huge now and Pinterest makes it easy to plan, fantasize, and obsess about every detail of one day. And not even just one day, but your whole life --travel, food, house, hair, body, etc. There is nothing inherently wrong with that, but I have found it pretty distracting. Distracting from what really makes marriage wonderful, beautiful, and rewarding. A couple of things, I am not dissing on Pinterest. Pinterest is great. My account is active and checked regularly. Also, I am not claiming to know everything about marriage. Ha! I have been married for a little less than a month. But, having just recently been "single" and dreaming about my wedding day all the expectations and anticipations are still pretty fresh.
Planning my life and future on Pinterest is fun and I think if in moderation, healthy, but it is NOTHING compared to the joy and peace and love that I feel just day to day, living, sharing, and sacrificing for someone I love. It is NOTHING compared to the feeling of going to the temple with Mckay and knowing that through the Gospel of Jesus Christ I will be together forever with him, that our love will never end, but just grow deeper with every day. It is NOTHING compared to laughing, teasing, flirting, crying, worshiping, and working with Mckay.
No amount of searching on Pinterest, sitting in Marriage Prep classes, even studying the scriptures or Ensign's could have prepared me for the happiness I feel.
I think, subconsciously, I believed that if I could just get married I would be happy and my problems would go away. But every bit of wisdom I have received from my sisters and close friends has been true. This feeling of happiness and love that I feel is a choice. A choice that I make every single day. It isn't a hard choice most of the time, but still a choice. There are still problems to solve and work through. Life is still life and choosing to love it and be happy are still choices I have to make.
Oh how I wish I would have had a better handle on that when I was single. Oh how I wish I would have enjoyed more that time and let go of all the pressure I put on myself. The Lord has every intention of helping his children be happy and feel loved in every stage of their life.
Please, love yourself a little more. Enjoy each moment, each phase in your life. Your Father in Heaven has a plan and a purpose for each moment in your life. Believe that He loves you. Thank Him endlessly. And be happy.
I love my husband. Getting married has probably been one of the most humbling experiences. Not to say that Mckay is always telling me I'm wrong or something, it is more about accepting someone's love. It is like the feeling when you ponder the atonement. --Okay, obviously not quite as intense, but it's the same type of feeling. There is no real reason why Mckay should love me. I try to be a good wife by cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, making lunches, getting ready, giving hugs and kisses, but these really aren't reasons for Mckay to give me his heart. I would say this is the best thing about being married. Selflessly loving someone else and being selflessly loved. It is humbling and fulfilling.
God's plan, The Plan of Salvation, is truly the plan of happiness. You know, every girl I know dreams about when they get married. The wedding industry is huge now and Pinterest makes it easy to plan, fantasize, and obsess about every detail of one day. And not even just one day, but your whole life --travel, food, house, hair, body, etc. There is nothing inherently wrong with that, but I have found it pretty distracting. Distracting from what really makes marriage wonderful, beautiful, and rewarding. A couple of things, I am not dissing on Pinterest. Pinterest is great. My account is active and checked regularly. Also, I am not claiming to know everything about marriage. Ha! I have been married for a little less than a month. But, having just recently been "single" and dreaming about my wedding day all the expectations and anticipations are still pretty fresh.
Planning my life and future on Pinterest is fun and I think if in moderation, healthy, but it is NOTHING compared to the joy and peace and love that I feel just day to day, living, sharing, and sacrificing for someone I love. It is NOTHING compared to the feeling of going to the temple with Mckay and knowing that through the Gospel of Jesus Christ I will be together forever with him, that our love will never end, but just grow deeper with every day. It is NOTHING compared to laughing, teasing, flirting, crying, worshiping, and working with Mckay.
No amount of searching on Pinterest, sitting in Marriage Prep classes, even studying the scriptures or Ensign's could have prepared me for the happiness I feel.
I think, subconsciously, I believed that if I could just get married I would be happy and my problems would go away. But every bit of wisdom I have received from my sisters and close friends has been true. This feeling of happiness and love that I feel is a choice. A choice that I make every single day. It isn't a hard choice most of the time, but still a choice. There are still problems to solve and work through. Life is still life and choosing to love it and be happy are still choices I have to make.
Oh how I wish I would have had a better handle on that when I was single. Oh how I wish I would have enjoyed more that time and let go of all the pressure I put on myself. The Lord has every intention of helping his children be happy and feel loved in every stage of their life.
Please, love yourself a little more. Enjoy each moment, each phase in your life. Your Father in Heaven has a plan and a purpose for each moment in your life. Believe that He loves you. Thank Him endlessly. And be happy.
Wedding pictures soon to be coming!!! :)
Prayers
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
There are 17 short days until I marry the man of my dreams. Literally.
I remember one particularly hard day while I was going to Dixie in St. George I drove to the temple and sat in my car. I started praying and everything just started to pour out of me. I said out loud my deepest desires. I talked about wanting to be a wife and a mother. Not just a wife and a mother though, a righteous and awesome wife and mother. I talked about the talents that I wanted to develop, the kind of love that I wanted to experience in my marriage relationship, and my deep desire to just do what is right. I remember pausing for a while to catch my breath. My thoughts turned to Mckay. At this time he had been out on his mission for less than a year. Feeling a little sheepish, I told Heavenly Father that if it was at all possible, I wanted all of these things with Mckay. I wanted Mckay to be the one that I devoted all my time and energy to and to live out the gospel plan with. I knew at that time it was extremely silly of me. Especially since I knew better than most that waiting and loving a missionary is not the healthiest or the best idea, but it was truly what I wanted so I told Heavenly Father.
I don't write this to be mushy, but to simply be a witness that God hears and answers prayers and he always leads you to where you need to be. Even when you make mistakes and when you don't have any clue what you are doing.
I watched my sisters who are 15, 13, and 6 years older than me go through this time of life and navigate their way pretty well. Their lives have been guides to me as I have tried to find my own way. Even with their help I have felt lost much of the time and made many mistakes. Even up to this point in my life I feel there is no explanation of how I got here, but that God led me here.
With all these changes happening in my life so soon I cling to this truth. God hears and answers prayers and always leads you to where you need to be.
I remember one particularly hard day while I was going to Dixie in St. George I drove to the temple and sat in my car. I started praying and everything just started to pour out of me. I said out loud my deepest desires. I talked about wanting to be a wife and a mother. Not just a wife and a mother though, a righteous and awesome wife and mother. I talked about the talents that I wanted to develop, the kind of love that I wanted to experience in my marriage relationship, and my deep desire to just do what is right. I remember pausing for a while to catch my breath. My thoughts turned to Mckay. At this time he had been out on his mission for less than a year. Feeling a little sheepish, I told Heavenly Father that if it was at all possible, I wanted all of these things with Mckay. I wanted Mckay to be the one that I devoted all my time and energy to and to live out the gospel plan with. I knew at that time it was extremely silly of me. Especially since I knew better than most that waiting and loving a missionary is not the healthiest or the best idea, but it was truly what I wanted so I told Heavenly Father.
I don't write this to be mushy, but to simply be a witness that God hears and answers prayers and he always leads you to where you need to be. Even when you make mistakes and when you don't have any clue what you are doing.
I watched my sisters who are 15, 13, and 6 years older than me go through this time of life and navigate their way pretty well. Their lives have been guides to me as I have tried to find my own way. Even with their help I have felt lost much of the time and made many mistakes. Even up to this point in my life I feel there is no explanation of how I got here, but that God led me here.
With all these changes happening in my life so soon I cling to this truth. God hears and answers prayers and always leads you to where you need to be.
Please Come Sooner
Friday, November 1, 2013
50 Days
You know, I thought that I was excited for Mckay to come home from his mission. I thought that that countdown would last forever and that he would never really come home.
Okay, let's get real. Waiting to marry Mckay for eternity is 10x's everything I felt while he was on his mission. December 21st cannot come soon enough. I can't believe that in 50 days the hope that I have had for so long to marry Mckay is actually going to be fulfilled.
He is so good. I can't help throughout the day expressing gratitude to my Heavenly Father for sending this diligent, compassionate, and loving man into my life 4 years ago. He won my heart with his clever determination when I was 18. Little did I know then that he would become my husband and I would actually get to adventure with him my whole life and into eternity.
I am so excited!!!
We Have a God
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
I feel so overwhelmed with gratitude.
We have a God. He is our Father. He is perfect in every way. His love for us is truly immeasurable to our finite human minds. He sees us and is mindful of our desires, trials, weaknesses and pains.
He provided a Savior for us.
Because of this Savior I can do hard things.
Elder Richard G. Scott said, "True, enduring happiness, with the accompanying strength, courage, and capacity to overcome the greatest difficulties, will come as you center your life in Jesus Christ."
"If God be for us, who can be against us?" Romans 8:31
I pray for strength for all of us in our own, personal, individual struggles.
Endure. It is worth it.
We have a God. He is our Father. He is perfect in every way. His love for us is truly immeasurable to our finite human minds. He sees us and is mindful of our desires, trials, weaknesses and pains.
He provided a Savior for us.
Because of this Savior I can do hard things.
Elder Richard G. Scott said, "True, enduring happiness, with the accompanying strength, courage, and capacity to overcome the greatest difficulties, will come as you center your life in Jesus Christ."
"If God be for us, who can be against us?" Romans 8:31
I pray for strength for all of us in our own, personal, individual struggles.
Endure. It is worth it.
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